It's been so Long

I feel a blog coming on. For some reason a wave of something has swept over me and I don’t know why. I just feel very down for no apparent reason all of a sudden. And that was always my trigger to blog, so here I am.

It’s an interesting question though: why I don’t blog any more? Is it that I keep up with everyone on Facebook so don’t feel I have anything to say now? Is it that my life is pretty much the same one day to the next? Is it that this used to be a Bowienet thing for me, and without Bowienet (where I hardly ever go and where very few of my old friends now seem to remain) there is no impetus? Or is it that this was always pretty cathartic for me, and I used it to share the highs and the very low lows of a period of my life that I have now left behind? Certainly, the writing as therapy was a great help and got me through some very difficult times. I have realised just how difficult they were in retrospect as I find out just how long it is taking me to break free of them. But perhaps more on that another time.

So what is the answer to the question? I think, actually, that it’s a combination of all four. It’s odd, cos I actually have the time to blog now. In fact, I have hours and hours each day in which to write, yet don’t see to feel the inclination. I’ve also tried moving my blog. So far I’ve had it on Blogspot, but I don’t think anyone sees it there and I’m not too impressed with Blogspot – so many things don’t seem to work. I’m wondering about trying Wordpress. I suppose part of the problem as well is that I used to write some things that I felt were very personal that I was happy to share with B’netters but not happy to share with the world at large. And that is still a problem for me, although I think less so than it used to be since I rarely feel the need to write about my feelings any more.

It’s interesting though. Now I’ve started the words just seem to flow as they always did. So perhaps I’ll just change what I write about. I don’t know. I’ll just have to see how it goes.